why we don't talk.

WE don't talk because WE, in this case and every other one I can think of, implies multiple persons. WE cannot just be ME. If I talk, but get no response, that is an example of ME talking, not US.

Forgive me, for let me explain. I have some friends who send me the simple message, "why don't we talk any more?" or something to that effect. Trouble is, more often than not, it is me who has initiated contact in the first place with some drawn-out drivel about my life summary over the last 3-6 months. This is then usually followed by no response, a few months of no contact and then the dreaded 'message'. Now I know how this works. If someone were to do the same to me (i.e. message me their life summary) and I don't respond within the next 7-10 days, I can comfortably say that I don't really think about them much in my life. That does not mean I do not like them and that I do not wish them well. But most likely, we're not friends. We've entered the zone of acquaintances. After all, if this person means so much to me, how hard would it be to just send a short message to say, "I'm fine, just been busy". That doesn't even require any creativity. Just a short moment of thoughtfulness and consideration so that I know you still think of me enough to acknowledge my existence. That is, in no way selfish but just human nature, I believe. Now, don't get me confused here. I do not require summaries of your life in order for me to stay friends with you. In fact, we don't need to talk for months on end. It's just that, if I take the time out of my day to message you something meaningful and you can't even acknowledge it, I think that's a pretty telling sign that you just can't really be bothered. And, frankly, I don't want to surround myself with people like this. For some reason, this realisation has taken longer to settle in with me than it probably should have. I suppose I hold on because usually these are people that, at some point in my life, really meant a lot to me. And its sad to see that its no longer that way. But its okay, I can absolve myself of these people and it's not fair to those currently in my life who make me the happy person I am. I do not need to chase the people of my past because it's clear that they are exactly that - people of the past. So before you wonder why we don't talk, just wonder when the last time you did.

What is my deal?

So I had a look through my recent posts. About half of them contain apologies about my inability to sustain a consistent blogging schedule. How can this be? I mean, how hard is this? It's not like there aren't things to talk about. Let's hope, once again, that I've turned a corner and will improve my ways... I'd say stay tuned, but let's wait until I develop a habit out of this.